Lorosa'e

HIGHLY COMMENDED

2023

series of four linocuts printed in black ink on paper

67.3 x 48.3 cm (each), 134.6 x 96.6 cm (overall)

Tetum is the native language of Timor-Leste (East Timor). In Tetum, East Timor is called Timor Lorosa'e, which translates to "where the sun rises".

In 2000, I served in Timor-Leste as an infantry soldier. Discharging from the army in 2002, I was already exhibiting signs of mental health problems. I ignored my symptoms and pushed on with life and work. Mates continued to be deployed overseas to Iraq, Afghanistan, and other places. Some lost their lives, either in action or by suicide. I felt ashamed for discharging, felt my service was insignificant, that I had let my mates down.

I ceased all contact with fellow veterans and neglected my physical and mental health. In 2016, I was hospitalised in Ward 17 at the Repat Hospital with post-traumatic stress disorder. I could no longer work. I was introduced to art as a form of therapy, which I continue to rely on for mindfulness and expression.

I realise I am not alone; most veterans look back at their service and question whether they did enough. I now draw on my experiences to support other veterans battling similar issues.

Lorosa'e is the first artwork reflecting my army service. For me, “where the sun rises” is about moving forward with the dawn of each new day. I now live each day with gratitude and appreciation.